Archive for September, 2009

27
Sep

peel

   Posted by: rads    in fable

She was a delight, he thought.
From her giggles to the hearty deep laugh, her coquettish eyes to that curve of her brown lips. The way her chin angled in every picture he’d seen. It seemed natural that she’d do that until it was pointed out one day.
Her rich brown coffee colored hair streaked with henna, catching a bit of the sunshine as she turned and tossed her now waist length mane.

Flirtatious and flippant, she moved with purpose. Unaware of the effect she had amongst the row of men that waved from across the lines. It didn’t seem to faze her. It didn’t seem to make her heady. Her dancing feet firmly rooted, she pranced in and out of his life a few times now.

A whirlwind with every entrance. Leaving him breathless and harried. A high that was at once sexy, heady, thrilling as much as it drove him up the wall.

She was a child-woman. Excitedly she’d waltz into his life, with a bit of a tear threatening to flow down her rounded brown cheeks. He’d succumb. As much as a strict front he put on, he let her have the power on him. Every single time.

Every time she revealed a little bit of herself.

Animatedly she’d pull herself aside and show a secret. One. Each time it was just one, or maybe two. Not more. Guarded secrets. Ones that she treasured with great pride and a sense of urgency to protect.

He’d peeled away at her childishness one day. She let him.

Next it was her enthusiasm.

The way she held her pen while she wrote volumes to him.

Then came her spunk.

The sensuous curve of her neck.

The eyes that spoke volumes with different shades.

Peel by peel by peel.

His fingers trembled with every reveal.

She in turn glowed under his touch.

The finer fluff done, he probed further and braced her jealousies and insecurities.

Fascinatingly repugnant, yet strangely goading him further, he delved deeper.

The layers got difficult to navigate, murky, there was no clarity in where he was headed. Common sense told him to retreat now, but he was curious. He wanted to know everything about her. He felt that when he first met her and now there was a hesitation. A voice floated down “Be careful for what you wish for, you may just get it” He wondered briefly if this complication was necessary at all.

Outside his mind, the game continued. He stopped asking in hope that she would stop revealing. He was no masochist.

He exclaimed one day,”You are crazy! One day you surprise me, the next you shock!”

She smiled shyly. “There’s more. Just one last one”, she said with a twinkle in her eye.

With a sense of finality and relief and a sadness that accompanies the revealing of the mystery, he stood waiting. With a deep breath and a smile, she opened her palms and it shone. Clear and radiant, it lay there dazzling against the pinkness of her palm. It was her final treasure. It was herself.

Shielding his eyes to the brightness, he says with disappointment “A shiny clear stone!”

Her eyes drop, and she closes her palms. Her pulse raced and before she fell to the floor in a heap, she held onto her diamond just a bit tighter.

14
Sep

name this

   Posted by: rads    in fable

Hey you,

I’ve always been meaning to ask you this:

What is that thing that continues to propel someone to keep opening up to the same person?

  • Despite the said confidante not wanting or caring and has explicitly said so.
  • Despite the confidante who once welcomed warm open thoughts now has nothing more to offer but a cold shoulder.
  • Despite the fact that the confidante has completely shut down every part of themselves to this person

What do you call that overwhelming feeling that consumes a person’s rationale, logic and lessons learned and without a thought or hesitation continue to trust and lay bare the heart and mind. Open. Raw. Vulnerable.

What do you call the person?

What do you call that moment in time, when that moment can last a long lifetime? Or that’s how it may seem. When the mind throws itself back and it’s lost in a black hole coz there really is no discernible starting point to it all.

Stupid? Is that what it is? Naive, gullible and stupid?

Can one be selectively stupid? Like a choice?

Like “I’d like to be stupid with just you please? Nope, not you and you and you, but just you. And if you don’t mind, I’ll have a bagel with that as well.”

What if the trust is so far beyond the threat of the outcome of stupidity? Hurt. Continuous repetitive hurt.

What if being hurt doesn’t hurt anymore?

What if all you wanted out of all of this was a touch? Touch across the distance, with the words that quickly stand in attention and form a line. A phrase. Perhaps one day, I dare dream of a touch for real. Maybe I am getting ahead of myself. Let me just be for now.

You see that overwhelming thing I spoke about before? Yeah, it’s a lifeline. The vest that sails it all through, the thing that the world calls pain, and the people living in it call you stupid.

I think.

In overwhelmingly unknown terms,

R

10
Sep

stay (audio)

   Posted by: rads    in fable

As always, am trying different things that catch my fancy, and no one including me knows how long any of these fancies last. But enjoy I have learnt, for as long as they last.

A repost of an older post, this time with audio.

Stay_fable

Stay.

Stay
Just a bit longer, stay
I want to kiss you once more

The night as a witness to our desire
Hush,
Close your eyes,
Can you feel me?
Like I did just hours ago

In the silence of my darkness
Your breath as my beacon
I caress you with my fingertips

Stay
Just a bit longer
Make love to me once more

Brushing wavy tendrils away
Your stubble grazes my chin
A passion on a sway
Yet again
Your lips cradled in mine

In the crescendo of our heartbeats
Your voice as my refuge
I echo you with my eyes

Stay
Just a bit longer, stay
I want to kiss you once more

The night’s growing old
Dawn’s stealing quietly through
My spine feels a cold
Hold on, don’t let go

In the warmth of this raging amour
My dream as my anchor
I shut my eyes tight

As you must know
I wake with the dawn,
Poof!
There you go.

Stay
Just a bit longer
Make love to me once more

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