Archive for the ‘fable’ Category

14
Sep

name this

   Posted by: rads

Hey you,

I’ve always been meaning to ask you this:

What is that thing that continues to propel someone to keep opening up to the same person?

  • Despite the said confidante not wanting or caring and has explicitly said so.
  • Despite the confidante who once welcomed warm open thoughts now has nothing more to offer but a cold shoulder.
  • Despite the fact that the confidante has completely shut down every part of themselves to this person

What do you call that overwhelming feeling that consumes a person’s rationale, logic and lessons learned and without a thought or hesitation continue to trust and lay bare the heart and mind. Open. Raw. Vulnerable.

What do you call the person?

What do you call that moment in time, when that moment can last a long lifetime? Or that’s how it may seem. When the mind throws itself back and it’s lost in a black hole coz there really is no discernible starting point to it all.

Stupid? Is that what it is? Naive, gullible and stupid?

Can one be selectively stupid? Like a choice?

Like “I’d like to be stupid with just you please? Nope, not you and you and you, but just you. And if you don’t mind, I’ll have a bagel with that as well.”

What if the trust is so far beyond the threat of the outcome of stupidity? Hurt. Continuous repetitive hurt.

What if being hurt doesn’t hurt anymore?

What if all you wanted out of all of this was a touch? Touch across the distance, with the words that quickly stand in attention and form a line. A phrase. Perhaps one day, I dare dream of a touch for real. Maybe I am getting ahead of myself. Let me just be for now.

You see that overwhelming thing I spoke about before? Yeah, it’s a lifeline. The vest that sails it all through, the thing that the world calls pain, and the people living in it call you stupid.

I think.

In overwhelmingly unknown terms,

R

10
Sep

stay (audio)

   Posted by: rads Tags:

As always, am trying different things that catch my fancy, and no one including me knows how long any of these fancies last. But enjoy I have learnt, for as long as they last.

A repost of an older post, this time with audio.

Stay_fable

Stay.

Stay
Just a bit longer, stay
I want to kiss you once more

The night as a witness to our desire
Hush,
Close your eyes,
Can you feel me?
Like I did just hours ago

In the silence of my darkness
Your breath as my beacon
I caress you with my fingertips

Stay
Just a bit longer
Make love to me once more

Brushing wavy tendrils away
Your stubble grazes my chin
A passion on a sway
Yet again
Your lips cradled in mine

In the crescendo of our heartbeats
Your voice as my refuge
I echo you with my eyes

Stay
Just a bit longer, stay
I want to kiss you once more

The night’s growing old
Dawn’s stealing quietly through
My spine feels a cold
Hold on, don’t let go

In the warmth of this raging amour
My dream as my anchor
I shut my eyes tight

As you must know
I wake with the dawn,
Poof!
There you go.

Stay
Just a bit longer
Make love to me once more

1
Sep

thanks

   Posted by: rads

To the 19 folks who voted for me at Indiblogger, thank you. (I’ve been out of town since Friday and just saw the results)

I can account for about 10 of my regular readers who came forward and let me know, but the rest are left un-named so far. It is indeed gratifying to know that there are readers out there for their own reasons remain silent and watch from the wings, quiet and appreciative, like little content shy guardian angels.

For a blog of perhaps 30 odd subscribed readers, 19′s a fine number. It brings a smile to my face to the kind of endorsement this “contest” has brought to the surface. Not that one needed a “contest” to prove one’s mettle or capabilities or loyalties, but these are the bridges between the said and the unsaid.

My fables mean the world to me. Each is born of a different need, all sharing the same sentiment of wanting to be expressed in a language that speaks the truth to me and interpreted differently by everyone else. They originally started off as a vent, and have now morphed to mean a lot more.

My fables own me. The words that charge out do not come out of careful deliberation, something that’s very evident for a fine-tuned reader as I tend to publish un-edited pieces. I, Rads am not responsible for the premise of most, they appear when they wish and of their own free will. One just has to look at the dates and the frequency to know that one doesn’t plan such writings. They do not stick to the traditional ‘Short Story” description. They aren’t grand, they don’t always tell a story pretty, they do not have an ending, never mind a happy one, and they do not always leave the reader wanting more, or spellbound even, but they are my fancies and I write for me.

Please do not misunderstand my intentions. I am no snob by saying this, and am surely not treating my reader irreverently. The whole intention of jotting them down on a public blog is that what gives me joy and a satisfaction, I love to share. It’s out there not for accolades or for praise or even critique (all have always been welcome however) but purely for the need to leave it out in the open. Closed containers eventually stink.

As a few of you are aware, I am averse to online contests. Not that there’s anything wrong with them, but this is my take. Real life has its share of challenges, competitions and races. Blogging (both my blogs) has been a hobby to me, and will always be. To ones who see it the way I do, am sure you understand that mixing the two adds stress and kills the creative spirit that should remain unblemished till that point in time when the artist is ready him/herself. Also, there’s this need to better oneself each time. Race within and the rest takes care of itself.

So why did I ‘nominate’ myself? On a whim, and to prove a hunch I’ve had all along. I had no haughty notions of winning. In fact, I didn’t think I would even gather more than a handful of supporters. This is a pleasant (and a little unsettling to an extent) surprise. As many of you have said, my fables are difficult to understand and even require a few reads to ‘get’ them. Even then, many are unsure if they interpret it the way the fable was meant to.

What the reader should understand is that what the reader perceives could very well be different from what I have in mind. I love that option. Where one can take a bunch of words and make it their own. It’s fantastic. There is immense happiness when one does ‘get’ it the way I wrote it, but when  give room for interpretation, and people run with it, it speaks volumes of the readers themselves.

I stop.

Thank you once again for reading my fables.